hello lovelies! It's me, abby! i wanted to update you on my life due to the last time i did was ALMOST A YEAR AGO WTF so yeah here we go...
i'm now a freshman in high school and i've been doing much better than I was in september, aka the last time I wrote a journal about my life. October - May 2014 was one huge struggle. December I self harmed almost daily, it got to an extreme point, to a point where I indeed did attempt suicide, but I was stopped by a person who I will not be mentioning, but let's say that this person now holds a very important place in my heart ((no i'm still single okay))
I've been clean for almost 8 months and it's felt great! I have had many, many urges. And almost have multiple times, but haven't and it's felt amazing. I did have suicidal thoughts in May, but we'll get to that.
February was one of the hardest months of my life, because I broke up with my internet best friend. I fucked up big time and I miss her loads and loads, but I did indeed apologize for my fuck up, but she didn't forgive me, and I understand that, now we aren't friends, we don't even talk anymore. Which is tragic, but I'm getting over it.
I guess when something terrible happens, another amazing thing can become of it. I did meet another girl over the internet in December and she is today my best friend, more like a sister. She's been there for me through so much and i love her tons and tons.
May some shit went down with one of my best friends, she said some horrible things about me and at that time I was back in my 'lonely hole' and I wanted to commit by throwing myself off of a cliff ((literally)) but I didn't and I didn't self harm because my friends asked me to hang out and so they stopped me.
I also had one direction on July 11th and it was the best night of my life. Harry was so beautiful and so were all the others, it was hard not seeing zayn but you know haha
Also I saw 5 seconds of summer and cALUM WAS SO HOT
okay that's all haha. But I'm doing way better than I was before so that's good I suppose haha
all the love. -abby